SHAWN

IM GOING IN LATER TODAY AND I CAN'T SLEEP!
ANYWAY, see you guys in two weeks with the new botak me!
Till here~

I'm back from Hong Kong!
Life pretty good recently.
Just lesser updates on this blog.
Been thinking, should I continue this blog, close it or change of link?
Anyway a change of link will be good, wouldn't want too many people to know about it. Too many jokers out there are hating me.

Well, I will give myself 3 days to think about it!

August already, so fast! Going to Police National Service in a month time! Alright, I shall say PNS from now on!
Found out what I have to bring, and pasted it here for my convenient sake!

Things to bring/wear on enlistment:

- Wear a decent shirt & jeans for oath taking
- A pair of running shoes*
- 10 days worth of underwear and clothing suitable for PT (including socks)*
- Extra jeans in case your No.3/Walk-out attire is issued late
- Singlets (At least 3)*
- Qualification certificates
- Pen & paper
- SHAVER, DEODERANT* & other toiletries
- A basket that you can hang for your toiletries (very important)
- $30 worth of $1 coins (for laundry & drinks)*
- A COMBINATION lock*
- Kiwi & lint-free cloth*
- 8 hangers at least (if you like being neat, if not 6 will do)
- Plastic bags for storing your used clothes (there will be a lot)
- A torch light*
- An extra battery
- Some snacks if you want*
- An iron* (the OB room has, but a lot of demand once you are issued your uniforms.)
- Ear plugs*

* indicates this is not mentioned in the enlistment letter.

Time flies and I'm left with one month of freedom :(

Somehow I really believe this sentence:

If you dance with the devil, the devil don't change. The devil changes you.

One of the boring night on MSN~



Suddenly I have the urge to read this; not-for-kids.livejournal.com/2008/10/05/
It's close to one year already, but she's still living in my heart.
I miss you grandma :(

Should I continue Livejournal or jump to Blogspot?

Come come, give me your opinion. Okay talking about opinion, I had a sea-man today from Philippines, his name is call Opinion. I'm being bored now but its true.

So come on guys, flood me your opinions, leave me a comment here or MSN!

I saw this on a forum and I find it rather true after much thinking.

"Why is it so hard for people to love me for who i am and what i want to become - rather than they love me for who i'm not and what they want me to become?

After a while it becomes amazingly confusing who or what i am or have become - even to myself - at such an extent that i no longer know who to love.

Should i love myself or the self they want to love?
Is there even a difference anymore?"

Started jogging this two days, and my legs are aching already. But I have to train till the point that it won't ache, to be prepare for arrrrrrrme~
Got to sleep now, till next time!

Clement link me this song, and yeah, it's nice!



In a little while from now
If i'm not feeling any less sour
I promise myself to treat myself
And visit a nearby tower
And climbing to the top will throw
Myself off
In an effort to make it clear to
Whoever
What it's like when you're
Shattered
Left standing in the lurch at a
Church
Where people saying: "my god,
That's tough"
"she stood him up"
"no point in us remaining"
"we may as well go home"
As i did on my own
Alone again, naturally

To think that only yesterday
I was cheerful, bright and gay
Looking forward to who wouldn't do
The role i was about to play?
But as if to knock me down
Reality came around
And without so much as a mere
Touch
Cut me into little pieces
Leaving me to doubt
Talk about god in his mercy
Who if he really does exist
Why did he desert me?
In my hour of need
I truly am indeed
Alone again, naturally

It seems to me that there are more
Hearts
Broken in the world that can't be
Mended
Left unattended
What do we do? what do we do?

Alone again, naturally

Looking back over the years
And whatever else that appears
I remember i cried when my father
Died
Never wishing to hide the tears
And at sixty-five years old
My mother, god rest her soul
Couldn't understand why the only
Man
She had ever loved had been taken
Leaving her to start with a heart
So badly broken
Despite encouragement from me
No words were ever spoken
And when she passed away
I cried and cried all day
Alone again, naturally
Alone again, naturally

I'm so not looking forward to this week, 5 days of work non-stop!
Anyway today was another working day although it's Sunday. As usual Sunday is very slack.

I went to McDonalds and had dinner with Dolly and Derrick, wah, D & D. Okay I'm just being bored.
Lots of people studying there.
This table there's two girls that caught our attention. Obviously one is butch, and the other one is a les.
They do things that were really eye catching.
First they touch each other, and had fun with each other.
Here comes the exciting part, they started kissing, sort of like french kiss.
So i was like, woot, free show!
But somehow they know that we were looking and one of them stared at me.
Who cares anyway.

As I was eating, my eyes wonder to another table, which also consist of a couple.
First I though that the butch was a guy, so I didn't bother much.
I looked closely, woah, it's another couple of butch and les. Me like!
They didn't do stuffs that catch other's attention.
But somehow, somewhere caught my attention.
She walked past me and i saw that this butch wasn't wearing any bra.
And I saw the shape of n**ples.
I quickly look away.

PS: I don't really want to see all this but they just appear at the right place, at the right time. No disrespect to anyone who happens to read this.

telling me to go 
but hands beg me to stay 
your lips say that you love 
your eyes say that you hate 

there's truth in your lies 
doubt in your faith 
what you build you lay to waste 
there's truth in your lies 
doubt in your faith 
all i've got's what you didn't take 

so i / i wont be the one 
be the one to leave this 
in pieces 
and you / you will be alone 
alone with all your secrets 
and regrets 
don't lie 

you promise me the sky 
then toss me like a stone 
you wrap me in your arms 
and chill me to the bone 

there's truth in your lies 
doubt in your faith 
all i've got's what you didn't take 

so i / i wont be the one 
be the one to leave this 
in pieces 
and you / you will be alone 
alone with all your secrets 
and regrets 
don't lie

so i / i wont be the one 
be the one to leave this 
in pieces 
and you / you will be alone 
alone with all your secrets 
and regrets 
don't lie

I'm sick of answer this question, "When you going NS ah?" "Army or Police?"
Damn it, okay, here's one big answer if you people bother, "I'm serving my NS as Police, enlisting on September 8!"

So I'm left with exactly two months to enlistment, which means, 8 more weeks!
8 more weeks left, till my freedom is being taken away for two years.
:(

I don't know if this news is true, but it's heartwarming anyway.

Life have been pretty much the same this few weeks.
Eat, sleep, slack, work.
Nothing special really happen.

Another boring Friday ahead...

For the cold weather tonight, here's another nice song from the soundtrack.

There's some things we don't talk about
rather do without
and just hold the smile
falling in and out of love
ashamed and proud of
together all the while

You can never say never
why we dont know when
time and time again
younger now than we were before

Don't let me go
Don't let me go
Don't let me go
[x2]

Picture you're the queen of everything
as far as the eye can see
under your command
I will be your guardian
when all is crumbling
steady your hand

You can never say never
why we dont know when
time, time and time again
younger now then we were before

Don't let me go
Don't let me go
Don't let me go
[x2]

We're pulling apart and coming together again and again
We're growing apart but we pull it together, pull it together, together again

Don't let me go
Don't let me go
Don't let me go
[x4]

Transformer 2 official soundtrack has quite a lot of nice songs including of cause, Linkin Park - New Divide.
The next in my list is the song I'm going to post, kept listening to it!


Do you know what's worth fighting for
When it's not worth dying for?
Does it take you breath away
And you feel yourself suffocating?
Does the pain weight out the pride?
And you look for a place to hide?
Does someone break your heart inside?
You're in ruins

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms
Give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky
You and I

When you're at the end of the road
And you lost all sense of control
And your thoughts have taken their toll
When your mind breaks the spirit of your soul
Your faith walks on broken glass
And the hangover doesn't pass
Nothing's ever built to last
You're in ruins

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms
Give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky
You and I

Did you try to live on your own
When you burned down the house and home?
Did you stand too close to the fire?
Like a liar looking for forgiveness from a stone

When it's time to live and let die
And you can't get another try
Something inside this heart has died
You're in ruins

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms
Give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky
You and I

Today I had McDonalds for lunch. Somehow I feel that the cashier is forcing me to drink Coke?
The whole ordering process went as per normal, she can hear me loud and clear.
I was wondering why when going through this process.
After telling her what I want, she begin to ask me what drink I prefer:

Cashier : Coke or Sprite?
Me        : Sprite
Cashier : Upsize?
Me        : Ya
Cashier : Do you want Coke or Sprite?
Me        : Sprite

*After collecting my money*

Cashier : So you want Coke huh?
Me        : ... Okay okay, Coke.

I was left standing there thinking if she's a foreign worker!
Anyway its alright, I drink coke afterall~
Watching Transformers 2 tomorrow! Looking forward to it~

If I'm born in USA, I would live my dream by joining WWE, wrestling.
If I'm born in England/Spain/Italy, I would live my dream by joining football.

But I'm born in Singapore, I have to be realistic and work hard for my future.

I'm waiting
For the perfect time to call you back
Cos' I remember saying
Don't wanna know the truth
Can't handle that

And I try to just forget you
But I don't know how
If only I knew

It's written all over your face
Such a painful thing to waste
Tell me now
Where do we go
Now the future's not so clear
I can't believe we've ended here
Where's the world that doesn't care

Maybe I could meet you there

I'm sorry
If I slagged you down
I meant no harm
When I heard the stories
Said things I didn't mean
Should have stayed calm
But sadly
You got angry
And it breaks my heart
You're so mad at me

Its written all over your face
Such a painful thing to waste
Tell me now
Where do we go
Now the future's not so clear
I can't believe we've ended here
Where's the world that doesn't care

Maybe I could meet you there
Maybe I could meet you there
Maybe I could meet you there

Its written all over your face
Such a painful thing to waste
Tell me now
Where do we go
Now the future's not so clear
I can't believe we've ended here
Where's the world that doesn't care

Maybe I could meet you there
Maybe I could meet you there
Maybe I should meet you there

Thank you guys, I really appreciate it! Thank you for bringing a smile onto my face :)
They knew I was down even though I really never tell them what happen.
But they did this to cheer me up.


My birthday cake~

Right after our weekly Friday soccer session, we went to coffeeshop to eat.
As I was eating my french fries, Derrick suddenly presented this cake!
I was kinda shock seriously. I didn't expect it.
I thought after eating I'm going home to emo again.


The heypi me~

Thats our tradition. Whoever's birthday it is, we will sing out loud the birthday song in the coffeeshop.
Everyone will look, will feel pai seh, we don't care, it's once a year anyway.
That is what make us special.


We~

Although some of them were not there, but still,
Thank you for chipping in for the cake~
Thank you all for planning this surprise for me~
and especially,
Thank you Derrick, who I always disturb~
last but not least,
Thank you Moon Ngoh for being part of it and keeping the cake as well~

You guys are the bestest! :)

My reaction was when I found out that my Dad was using facebook. He was asking me how to comment on photos. But anyway it's good as he has lots of old classmates using too.